It’s a rant. Disclaimer! Please don’t read further if you don’t like my personal issues, I have a lot to share. It’s a challenge to start rants in a professional manner and without using unparliamentary words πŸ˜‚ so here we go.

I’m used to receive NO. This is not new. I didn’t even ask a permission but I was informing about my decision to that person, because. I thought I had all the rights to ask. I was straight away given a NO.

A kid has four apples with their parents and they gave one to the kid, is it wrong for the kid to swap one apple? Why the kid needs permission?

Enough with my silly examples, I felt hurt. It’s not the first time that person hurt me with a NO straight to my face, even though I’m used to the NO, what it hurt the most is that person defaming my character to my family members. It’s been 35 years and it hurt cause that person didn’t changed a bit.

I felt disgusting when that person thought I’m asking that because they did it to one of my loved person. HELL NO! I never ever would or could thought like that. I love that person I’m happy for all that person has got so far and I wish they get more deep from my heart. I never compared myself to anyone, how could that person even think like that.

I was not asking permission, I was passing a message about my decision. There are million ways to say NO, I thought I had the rights, if I’m wrong why explain me the reason at first place. I don’t need what they offered me as alternative, I felt small, NO, i don’t need the pity from that person.

35 year’s, that person knew Only that much about me? It’s their loss, I’m not greedy of wealth or money, I luckily grew up earning money for the living and grateful for what I have,. I’m not like them to forget what they had done for me. I won’t forget this and infact I have never forgotten anything that person did to me in the past, I am good at moving on and focus on my current priorities, but it all runs in my head, those are scars, noisy scars, it will never disappear.. I have never missed That person. You know why? Because that person is … No, I’m not going to write about that person anymore. Waste of time. Good night.


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  1. It is very beneficial to share these thoughts, and people are free to read or not so don’t stress yourself with them. You reached closure at the end, and writing it this way will help you see things clearer.
    You know, most of the time, the problem is our own expectations and we are always disappointed without any exception. Usually, the few people that do the right thing, just do it without us asking and it rarely happens. Even f you know someone your entire life, don’t expect them to know the person you are, sometimes our parents fail to do so and it hurts but there’s nothing we can do except build ourselves, our character, and the right people will show up, will treat us well and will understand us without any effort. All the rest doesn’t matter. The misunderstanding, the judgment, the defamation…should be returned to the owner, even though sometimes we need to fight to protect ourselves and our reputation when attacked by psychopaths, but other than that we just need to know ourselves, strengthen our foundation, and ignore all the rest. It’s not easy but work in progress πŸ™‚so keep it up, you are a great soul and this is pretty enough πŸ˜ŠπŸ’•

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  2. Thanks Huguette πŸ€—. I did not come out of it. Same person has come again and said the same thing and hurt me. I ignored and pretended like nothing happened. That’s right, expectations are the biggest mistake. I invested too much expectations or should I say confidence of them supporting me. But how foolish I was. Now I don’t want to give their own taste for what they did. At this age I don’t want to see them suffer, i wonder why they are so happy see us suffering or Humiliated with their defamation. Sigh. I’ll keep it for another post Huguette ☺️ I just want to say they are crazy.

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  3. I totally understand you and believe me you won’t find justification or logic in it! Ask me about it. Most of times we need to move on without even an apology because we owe ourselves a closure and I hope this period will pass and you will learn from it despite all pain and hurtπŸ™πŸ»πŸ™πŸ»

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  4. After several rant here and there I feel good Huguette πŸ€— Thanks. Now I look back and feel how silly it was, it does gave me a valuable lesson and true color of them. Have a good day βœ¨πŸ€—

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  5. Thanks Shruti. I got a chance to see how much NO these people could say They proved again, I got a NO again πŸ˜‚. So funny how it made me feel last week. Thanks for reading Shruti πŸ€—βœ¨ I’m feeling good β€οΈπŸ‘


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