With limited Time I got, this is running in my head.
I’m not wasting time, I’m only letting my thoughts out as words. Does it worth? For me? Yes!
Jealous, yes! I’m jealous. It is my deepest desire, to write and my words connect the reader’s soul. Did I get it? I’m not satisfied with my writing is the answer.
Jealous, yes! Why? Posts that catches my eye and I re-read again and again, because my mind is clumsy at times so nothing goes into my head. Most time, I read again and again and wonder how these writers got time? Wow! One day I’m going to write like them.
Complaining, my new year resolution is to stop opening my mouth, the more I talk more the mess I am. I was boasting once, the way I’m disciplined, the way I’m organized, successful, giving importance to fitness. Like elders said Nothing is permanent – my sleeping schedule is decided by my twin boys, my house is messy, my head as well, I’ve been complaining and lost that positive vibe and a performance lag on my career, now I’m complaining again because all of it runs in my head. Like I stuck in a traffic jam and everyone honks their horn, and I’m sitting in the car wondering where I’m stuck.
May this post be my last rant. Being an atheist is terrible, talking to an imaginary friend or blogging is the only option to save my sanity. I got stories to practice writing, poems to practice and a book to publish in future. Hope I’ll do it. Hope hope.
Do you believe in God? Good if you say yes. If no, how do you manage to save your sanity living in the mess created by humans? Oops! I’m complaining isn’t it? Manufacturing defect 😕. Good bye!
A Nobody Wandering Earth. 
Sometimes is just like that… One important thing that can help you move forward is to be optimistic and try to see the good in any thing that surrounds you. Instead of seeing the mess in your house, see the beauty of your family, instead of seeing the traffic, take the time stuck in traffic to listen a good song or a good book…You are a passionate person, just need to focus on the good 😉
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That’s right, I’ve moved on from that phase. It was a dark moment, I felt down. Now I’m okay 😊👍 You can sense the vibe? Just looking right in your mirror ☺️🙂
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First, I want to say that you are not alone and even if you are an atheist, you can save your sanity by working on your triggers, it’s a long process and not easy at all. Because as a believer I tell you that despite my belief in God’s will and his big plans, I also know that most people are idiots and they ruined this world. We are not unlucky to be born in such countries where no applicable laws, traffic, accidents, chaos, the strong rules and do whatever they want! This is not easy for people like us, we have discipline, and we are fair and respectful, so we suffer the lack of this in anyone else. We must not be harsh on ourselves, I mean it’s silly t compare myself with someone born in New Zealand where people don’t have to worry about anything we go through. This is why even as a believer, I need to work on my mental health because I can’t change people around me, and of course, leaving would have been the best choice for me, leaving for a respectful country but unfortunately I couldn’t for many reasons. But this would have saved me 80% of my anxiety and depression. Since I’m stuck here, I need to work on myself, ignore these triggers and reach a point where I’m not affected in a harmful way. I hope you can reach this point as well but one thing is helpful for sure, take a long break, give time to yourself and spoil yourself if needed because you cannot pour from an empty jar. Be well dear and you have friends whenever you want to talk, you are not alone😊💕
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Sometimes life does get overwhelming. I’ve been feeling that way lately as well :-\
I hope it passes soon. But yes, reading the blogs of my fav bloggers like you does help 😃
Thanks for sharing your thoughts, Simon! And best wishes for you and yours 🌸
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Thank you for the time ☺️
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Such an amazing and nice blog Simon! Too good. Your posts are so awesome and sorry for not visiting actually I forgot to open notifications for your blog so..
Have a great day🤗
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No worries ☺️ I’m happy for you visiting my space 😍 grateful for your kind words 🙏 💕 Wish you too a lovely day.
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Your always welcome bro!
And you are really so kind and understanding😉🤗
Have a good day😊
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